Day 2

I recently bought a diary at Wal-Mart. I intended to write my thoughts and feelings there, but the other night Gretchen found my diary and told me to hide it so that she didn't have the urge to read it.
I'm running out of things to really hide from her, but I don't want to expose her to constant reminders of my true feelings.
So I will now use this as my new journal; which is works for me anyways since I can't write for very long without getting handcramps.



If you are reading this, maybe you know me personally. Or maybe you are mystified as to who I am and maybe you are looking for answers.
This is for you.
I dedicate my inner thoughts and feelings in these entries to my children and my loved ones, since one day they may want to read this.
I hope they understand how I feel today, since who knows what tomorrow may bring.

To begin with, I have problems.
I know, I know, who doesn't? right?

I know I have severe self-confidence issues. I know I have bouts of depression. I could possibly have ADHD. All these things combined makes it difficult to evaluate what I really FEEL and what I THINK I FEEL.
I've had these issues for years now, but they do seem to be crashing down on me at this point in my life.

I am scared.