Crowing

There's a song by Toad the Wet Sprocket that I've listen to hundreds of times, but never really understood the meaning of. When I was younger, I bought a TTWS tab book and it had the tab for the song "Crowing".
I've always loved the mood and the melody of the song, but as I stated earlier, really had no clue what it was about.
On the inside cover of the tabbook, Glenn Phillips, the lead singer of TTWS makes a comment about that song. I don't remember exactly word for word what he said, but it was something about how two people can struggle so hard and just end up hurting each other. Something a little too deep for me at the time.

But now that I listen to that song, I think I found that meaning.
I do very much feel like the guy being talked about.

Gretchen knows the problems and anguish that I go through, and she now showers me with tokens of love even though I hardly return anything at all.
I don't know if I'm just not capable of loving her, or if I'm truly just living as a shell of who I am and that there's nothing left to give her.
Is her love enough to keep me? It's sad even writing that question.
I do feel like I'm crying out for repair, but I am realizing that there's nothing anyone can do. This repair is all up to me...

This song goes out to those who want to know what I feel.


"CROWING"
by Toad the Wet Sprocket

Been waiting
To find
You could've been happier
Given the time
If he'd make up his mind
You'd give yourself to anybody
Who would cross that line

And it was never question
He was crowing for repair
You'd give him love and affection
But you couldn't keep him there

Get over regrets
While you were sleeping with the angels
He was under the bed
And the more skin
That you shed
The more that the air in your throat will linger
When you call him your friend

And it was never question
He was crowing for repair
You'd give him love and affection
But you couldn't keep him there

Staring at a cold little hand
Reading fault lines
Of a shell of a man
You were waiting for a word from above
Wouldn't you know it
No answer ever did come

And it was never question
You were crowing for repair
You'd give him love and affection
But you couldn't keep him there