Life is good, life is grand...

So it's been about 2 weeks since I've taken anything. Whether it be Adderal, Cilexa or Welbutrin and I have to say that I'm feeling fine.
It's been so long, that I forget why I even got on all that stuff.
I've never once had thought of self-harm or anything, just that nagging feeling of unhappiness.
It's so hard to decipher what it is that's truly bothering me...maybe it is my marriage. I don't know.
I've given this the best shot I can on making the best of my situation. I've tried numerous medications and none change that feeling that I have.
My counselor said to me: "You know Nathan, I would be very interested to see what kind of person you are when you are not on medication..."
I couldn't help but smile, but I think even she knows that I wouldn't change much.
So now it's just Gretchen that holds on to the hope of me changing.
I really want to say that I've tried the drugs.

But I'm feeling pretty good about things. The Welbutrin was crap anyways and was making me dizzy all the time, and I'm still able to focus without the Adderall.
It's probably all the stress in my life.

But life is still good.